Restless nights, while I was having another episode again and inner screaming because noises wouldn't go away when the only noise was my own coughing. I couldn't fall asleep as the tears wouldn't stop falling. Every time I coughed, I felt upset because there's fluid. Red fluid. A lot.

Questions filled my head.

What's wrong with me?

"Oh Lord, I'm scared..."

Where did that strong girl from the past go?

I've had this headache for over a week and it won't go away.

I'm not any better. I feel so desperate, I have really hit rock bottom.

Still I have to overcome it, even if my body wears out.

At least, He's with me every time.

I've made up my mind.

I just can't sit here, doing nothing about it. 

My poor health is nothing. I'm going to be fine.

I did fall a little before, no more...I'm going to fine. I will.

Setiap penyakit ada penawarnya. Allahu.