I'm not myself for weeks. Those days where my mood changes every half hour are so frustrating. At times, it is not easy for me to take up living again. I feel lost inside myself. Some nights I wish I could go back in life, not to change things, just to feel a couple of things twice. The dark circles under my eyes are the remnants of the sleepless night I spent thinking of nothing. I lay in bed for so long just trying to make it stop, not even bad thoughts, just thoughts on thoughts on thoughts.The fact that I could literally change my life at any moment...nothing is stopping me yet I have no idea what to do with it.