I used to be lively and now I’m in pain and melanchony. I can’t find the trace of positive vibes. It’s come to the point that life, itself is choking the life out of me. I can’t grasp my feelings. I’ve been hurt. Painful and pointless. I’m tired by pretending to be happy. I’m tired of faking smiles every time. It’s weird. I keep changing my masks to different people. What did I do to deserve these feelings? It’s irritating. One minute I think I’m fine, the next minute I feel like I’m dying. I’m so nervous. My heart won’t stop palpitating. I’m depressed. I’m so mad and I don’t understand myself. The pieces in my mind…I can not interpret them too. It’s hard not to let my own thoughts suffocate me sometimes. What am I supposed to do? I can’t even help myself. 

My soul is so black. It’s frustrating and my mind is occupied by unwanted thoughts. It’s like you’re screaming but no one can hear. I can’t help but let the negative thoughts consume me. Existing is exhausting as the bad memories are sprouting up. Isn’t ironic? Smiling has always been easier than explaining why you are sad. I can not stop worrying. I doubt everything. I wonder things will work out or not. It’s just…wouldn’t it be nice to just leave all our worries and travel? Because everyday is a struggle. I’m just getting anxious over everything. For now, my heart just needs a break from everything for a bit. I’m so worn out I can’t even function. My mind thinks too fast for me to keep up with. I guess, I’ve exceeded my daily feelings limit. 

HOLD

ON

PAIN

ENDS