Basically, I feel tired and a little lethargic today. And this gives me no good. I just surf the internet, checking on the bands I adore all day long. Plus, the internet people I like. Well, a lot of things keep bugging me. You know, that feeling when you lose your phone...and everyone is annoying. Oh god, I'm so mad at myself. I've been careless nowadays. It's just-everything crawls back to my head, and it's mixed. Honestly, I have such a fulfilling yet empty feeling....I'm not in the great mood either.

It always crosses my mind. So I question myself, "Am I that insignificant?" I always try to be fun around them, hoping that somehow it'll make my existence solid but no. I only make them laugh and they forget about it. They forget about me. They always forget about me. Sometimes I asked myself, "Am I not good enough to be one of their friends?". Maybe I'm the problem. That's it. I am the problem. I don't really fit in with them. I guess, something's wrong with me.

I know I should not feel this way. Ugh. I don't know. I think I feel a tiny bit of pain but ugh. I can't take it. Every freaking time I caught myself, crying over ridiculous things. I can't help it. I don't know why, I feel stupid right now. This should stop. This whole damn thing because it hurts. Can I just move on?