She always like being alone. She gets to think clearly when she is alone. She works better alone. Most of the time, she is happier alone. And she's waiting for the person who will change that.

At one point, it may have been worth it. She just doesn't feel it anymore but she guesses, "time passes", flowers wilt, seasons change, feelings do too, but maybe the thing that changed the most were people. "I'm so tired of fighting for nothing." Sometimes she goes through pictures on her phone and thinks "I wish it was this day again." It sucks when a close friend becomes a distant friend and when she tries to get close again, it's just not the same.

She sees all these things around her and they're great, they're beautiful. But she also sees the darkness that comes and steals the beauty in everything. It eats away her love and burns holes in her heart. She used to be able to fight the darkness, to see the beauty still. But lately she's lost her strength and all she sees is darkness.

If you look at her closely you can see that. Every now and then she turns away from her group of friends, her smile falters and she becomes another person for a few seconds; a sad person, a person who is broken and damaged, and after a few depressing seconds, she goes back to the group, smiling and joking around. She almost looks like she is actually happy but if you look at her closely you can see how spurious her smile really is and you can see all the wreckage behind her fake smile. 

Sometimes, a hug is all she needs. 

She looks back to a year ago and realizes how strong she's become. She got over them and their hold on her no longer exists. She's seen who she can and can't trust and watched people walk out of her life. She's here and it's now. New day.